For months now, words have felt as flimsy and as distant as a flake of snow across the harbor. I can't find the right ones, and even looking for them hurts my tired eyes. And was it even snowing? Months my body has been knitting that energy into a baby ball that seems to inflate daily, or perhaps more accurately, within the nights that feel long and less restful than I'm used to, waking knowing I will wake again and again.
But today, the urge came into my fingers so strongly to come back to writing. Perhaps because reading labor and delivery books is so tight, so much to think about, imagine, remember and that string feels like it's stretching. Or maybe just because I had a delicious bite of chocolate, a luxury I couldn't enjoy much pre-pregnancy without a headache. I'm trying in 2025 to see again. So much reacting: to email, to work hillocks, to little sparkly bursts of attention everywhere. And instead I want attention. That's my word of the year. Time to look and smell and feel what each moment is in itself.
We have been to a handful of ocean-cooled northern spots over the last year, and I haven't had the energy to share, but I don't want to forget, and so here I'm back to share what I remember, and mostly Walker's luxurious photos.
I just finished a book of stories by Truman Capote and what I remember is not only the visual descriptions but that his stories sizzle with different scents and smells. Today in midcoast Maine smelled like damp moss, the rain yesterday clearing the air wild again, and sunshine purifying as it does. Inside, we are a bit stale of old pine and almost-cool ashes from the fireplace that has been my balm the last month.
Here is a preview of a few places I'll try to breathe some air back into:
We are just back from the raw and wild highlands of Scotland. The trip was long for us, and felt like we were really away, because we were able to visit to many new-to-us places, as well as rest in the sweet company of old friends. We met in Scotland 16 years ago, and time has both flown and floated stagnant in that time, and so we love returning as a landmark.
Grand Manan Island in Canada, just over 3 hours + a 1.5 hour ferry from home, the magnitude of cliffs and peace of the island captured us when we visited this fall.
The April eclipse at Moosehead Lake, Maine.
A summer with a few stops in Acadia (and my iPhone photos only).
AND last year's epic trip to the Dolomites in northern Italy.
Let's see if I can make it through all these places before the baby brings us to a whole new land.